[ a party i'm never invited to ]

i know i said i wouldn't turn the heat on now that it's spring, but the cold snap caught me off guard. i would try to keep my door open to let heat in from the other room but it's so hard to join a party i'm never invited to.

so i'll just sit in my corner looking like i'm ignoring everything. you look at me like i'm lost at sea, but in reality i've come back to shore to avoid your party. which i'm never invited to, anyway.

it seems you think i've changed for the worst, but i never belonged in your world. the person you got to know before was a girl who never existed.

sorry to rain on your parade, but i've got to get going. i've got a list of unimportant and boring things to do, and besides, it was a party i was never invited to, anyway.

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